Thoughts at 30 Weeks

Things that seem to be on my mind lately:

• I'm getting bigger every day, but I still haven't hit the completely uncomfortable stage yet.
• Getting out of bed/off the couch/out of the car/up off the floor takes longer and more effort than it ever used to.
• Sometimes I can't breathe and I'll stand up and take deep breaths in and out just so I don't feel like I'm suffocating.
• This little human being does in fact have to come out of me.....more than a little terrifying if you ask me.
• I am 3/4ths of the way finished with being pregnant.


• For the first time I am really starting to wonder what this kid is going to look like. I've thought about it before, but now I wonder about the details like will he have brown eyes like me or blue/green eyes like Trevor and all his brothers do.
• There's this old wives tale that says if you have heartburn your kid is going to have hair...none of my mom's kids had hair, but Trevor and his siblings all did.....BUT considering how much heartburn I have endured this baby better come out needing a dang haircut.
• Some people are lucky enough to not have stretch marks...I'm not one of them...AND it gets worse everyday. Pregnancy is not the time to be vain, but seriously this is one thing that has made me more than a little sad.
• I keep hearing that you should have really good skin when you are pregnant, but mine sucks more than ever.
• Will I be a good mom?
• Our lives are about to be forever altered. I hear it's a good change, but I still can't imagine how different it's going to be.
• My maternity shirts are getting a little smaller (well, I'm getting bigger, but it sounds better the other way), but I am still able to wear my own jeans.
• I really have 10 weeks left, but I tell myself I only have 8.
• If anyone has a heart they will pray for me that it will only be about 8 weeks.
• People want to see pregnant belly shots (this week their blurry, I know), but I know it's really because you all want to see how huge I am and then you discuss the fact amongst yourselves.
• Is it hotter everywhere, or is it just me? Oh yeah, it is me....
• I am so glad I don't live in the valley for these last 8 weeks!
• The area around my bellybutton is extremely sensitive, and this kid thinks it's funny to push really hard right there whenever I am out in public, which makes me want to cry sometimes when he does it hard enough.
• Speaking of belly buttons....mine has not popped like a turkey timer yet. Woot-woo!
• I've heard that when you are carrying a boy you carry low, that is not true for me.
• If so-and-so can give birth, I can too....right?

I can't believe that I am this far through! I thought that I thought about pregnancy and this baby a lot before, but it's nothing to how much I think about it now especially with all this time left on my hands. Exciting but really scary. It'll be nice to put all my worries and thoughts away in a few weeks.....even if they are just going to be exchanged with a whole bunch of new ones!